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Toxic

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Toxic

Chapter 1

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"YOU BITCH, HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO ME THAT WAY, LEARN WHERE YOUR POSITION IS, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO OBJECT TO ME, I AM YOUR HUSBAND, MEN ARE BETTER THAN WOMEN, NOW SHUT UP AND LET ME FINISH OR I WILL KNOCK YOU OUT!". The man said to me. My so called husband.. Each time he rammed into me, the more i felt disgusted with myself. Every time, i would let him do it. I cant do anything about it. if i say something, he will hurt me more. he scares me. i'm terrified of what he will do if i let my voice out to someone. he could be capable of anything at this point. Hes frustrated. he blames me for everything. its all my fault he says. He wasn't always like this though. Long ago, he actually was my husband. Now hes just a monster that abuses me. I say he became like this because he fell into a deep world called alcoholism. Hes in too deep, and he wont get the professional help he desperately needs. Now i have to suffer for his mistakes. But I've had enough. i am so fucking tired of this cycle happening OVER and OVER again.

"ENOUGH, I'M TIRED OF YOU ABUSING ME, I'M TIRED OF YOU BLAMING ME FOR YOUR FAILURES AND YOUR OWN SELFISHNESS, I AM NOT THE PROBLEM, YOU ARE YOUR OWN PROBLEM! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH PAIN AND SUFFERING YOU HAVE PUT ME THROUGH. I FEEL MYSELF BECOMING LESS SANE FROM BEING IN THIS TOXIC HOUSE. i DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY OR DO, I AM GOING TO REPORT YOU TO THE POLICE AND TELL THEM WHAT A MONSTER YOU ARE. I ONCE WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU, AND YOU COMPLETELY TURNED THAT LOVE INTO COMPLETE HATE! I FIND YOU DISGUSTING! I HATE YOU! I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE YOU TRULY BELONG!' THIS WHOLE THING IS SO RAMBUNCTIOUS, AND I'M GOING TO PUT AN END TO IT!" i yelled at the monster and ran out of the house.

My heart is racing. My adrenaline is pumping. My heart feels like its going to burst. I don't know whether to feel excited, nervous, relieved, or happy. i'm feeling all of them at once. my mind is spinning. I can't believe this is actually happening. As i'm running, i see the police station. Everything went in slow motion. Everything started to light up. i felt a smile form on my face. For once in my life, i'm happy. I am free from the demons in my head and from the demon in that house.

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This story was a little on the extreme side in the beginning, my apologies, but in all seriousness, if u know someone who is being abused domestically, plz have them get help from someone, it can make a big difference (:. hope whoever read this enjoyed lol, see ya next time (; -lulu

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