How do you spend your time with the person you love the most?
It feels like every second, every minute or every hour is not enough?
I envy you.
Because not all of us spend the rest of our time with someone, who forgets us at the end of the day.
5 months ago
My name is Ellie, I have Anterograde amnesia, and my parents died when I was 12.
"Ellie, gising na!" someone's waking me up
"hmm 5 mins" sabi ko sa gumigising sakin
" it's your check up day"
I look at my calendar and I have no choice to go to that clinic every week
" don't forget to bring your i.d, your phone and be careful, okay?" my tita said just to be reassure
" wag ka mag alalala tita, mag iingat po ako" umalis na ako sa apartment
I just live with my tita's apartment, she's the one who took care of me when my parents died, namatay sila sa car accident and I was there too. It was really an unfortunate event for me.
While I was walking in the street, I saw this man whose really weird.
" Hey man! What should I do today?" I am working for a part time job to pay my bills
" You wear this" he gave me a costume and its pink
"Dude! ano to?" I ask him
"You said you wanted a part time job, edi ayan you'll be a mascot for the day" wha what? is he serious?
"I guess, I don't have a choice then"
For the whole damn day, I was just being a pink mascot and guess what I have to dance in the street, people are looking at me and thinks, I'm weird because of my dance steps.
" dude, good job HAHAHAH" he said that while laughing
" you know how it feels to be there HAHHAH" we both laugh
" Alis na ako, see you tomorrow" paalam ko sakaniya
He's weird but cute
" How do you feel today, iha?" my doctor ask me
" I'm okay doc, hindi naman sumasakit ulo ko" I said
" okay, but you have to check up every week" she reminded me
"I know, doc. I have to go now, bye" umalis na ako sa clinic.
It sucks to have this kind of illness, losing your memory. It just really suck
Is it a good day to die?
Am I ready to die?
At that point I was thinking of ending myself, Im just tired of everything
" Hoy! magpapakamatay ka ba?" someone ask me
then I just realize na malapit na pala ako mahulog
" Miss, okay ka lang ba?" he ask again
" Ah oo" agad akong umalis sa tinatayuan ko pero humabol siya
"Miss, okay ka lang ba talaga?" bakit ba ang kulit nito
" sabi ko na nga diba okay lang ako"
" easy ka lang, eh ba't ka magpapakamatay?" tanong niya kairita to
"Okay sir---" di ko na natapos sasabihin ko
" Jacob" huh?
"My name is Jacob" may gana pa siya magpakilala ha just wow
"Uhmm okay, Jacob. Hindi ako magpapakamatay, I was just standing there and out of nowhere nandun na pala ako, so please excuse me?" I was walking so fast para di niya na ako sundan
"Hindi man lang nag thank you?" sabi ko sa sarili ko
Ano problema nun?
Ano to? Ellie? sakaniya ba to?
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Ellie Cruz pala name niya ha
I think I lost something.
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