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Letter to the one I might love

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Letter to the one I might love

by Default avatar Jenny98 2 mins.

I might love you...

I might and you might never know, but this is how you make me feel. You make me feel sad, happy and everything in between. I wish you knew... but I'm not strong enough to tell you that. You challenge me, you make me question everything and I love it! I love the way you make me smile, the way you put up with me when I'm mad, the way you make fun of me, the way you look at me, the way you make me feel better by just being there... and you might never know that.

I don't want the fairytale perfect love like we see in movies, I want the real thing. The thing where we fight and scream at each other, but at the end of the day, we know we love each other. I want to be able to trust you with everything, I want to be the best friend you never had, I want to be there and I want you to be there for me too.

This might be too much to ask for, and you might think I'm bein unreasonable, but I need that and you'll understand why. I've been screwed up too many times and I'm scared. But don't think I want you just to "heal" me. No, I can heal myself. I learned to survive, I built up barriers to protect me and without knowing it you broke them down. All of them. This is the thing I didn't want to happen. If you look closer you'll see me in all my imperfections, in all my natural state. I'll let you see all the scars, I'm letting myself to be vulnerable for you and I can't stop it now. Now I know why they call it "falling in love". I fell, hard and I'm not sure you're there to catch me, but it's too late to turn back now. You're that person that has the hability to destroy what's left of my heart.

What started as a stranger turned into something else. I'm starting to know you and the more I know, the more I find myself atracted to you. I never been so scared in my entire life. This haunts me... Some say you're the light to my darkness. Are you? I want to ask you, I want you to look me in the eyes and tell me the truth. Do you feel what I feel for you? Am I making a big deal out of everything and you don't like me like I like you or is this true?

I promise I'll give you everything I can, but you have to take me as I am. As much as I like you I'm not changing. This is me. With all my imperfections. You have a choice. Make it! Just promise me one thing. Be careful with me. I might look tough but really deep down, I just want to feel safe. I just want to feel loved. I know I have the love of the family and friends, but I want that other kind of love. The kind that make you loose your mind, the kind where you just know you're loved and trusted. I want all of that and I don't know if you're the one with whom I'm gonna make that happen, but if you are I'll be the best person I can, I'll always be there if you let me and I'll love you with all I have... Right now it's up to you.

I know I might be making a mistake or falling too hard too fast, but it's true...

I might love you...

and you might never know...



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Alexis @Tiger Master
this is great please make another
Jenny98 @Jenny

thanks for the comment. I really apreciate it

Rae-Anne @RGirl
wow...that is good
Jenny98 @Jenny

thanks really! :)