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Letter to the one who broke my heart

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Letter to the one who broke my heart

by Default avatar Jenny98 2 mins.

I wrote you a letter a while ago... telling you how much you meant to me... how much i loved you... The feeling grew everyday and I had hope... hope that we could have a future together... hope that you might love me as much i love you... The way you acted around me... the way you talked and looked at me... I saw what I wanted to see perhaps... our friends saw it to... Everyone was encouraging me to tell you... to let you know how much you mean to me... how much i loved you... And that's what I did... i gathered all my courage and told you... only for you to tell me no... You see me as a friend... nothing else...just a friend... and that broke me a little... a little piece of me... I gave you all of my heart or at least what was left of it and you broke it... gently of course and I thank you for that... I really do but I ended up broken once again... And then you asked me to talk... I said yes and you told me that. That thing. That part of you that you had never shared with anyone... and you shared it with me... and that made everything worse in a way... I understand the justification of what happened. I really do but I don't think I could cope with all of that... It's not your fault and I will always be there for you... for everything and you know it... We'll still be friends, I can't bare to lose you... even if it's just as a friend... but you gave me something... a tiny speck of hope... When you make up your mind I might still be here but I don't know... I don't know what to feel, what to do and how to keep going without you... I wrote before that you were the only person that could break me for good... well I was right... I can't breathe, I can't stop crying, I can't stop feeling broken... I loved you more than anyone could. I stayed with you through everything. I was always there being your rock. Your suport and now what? We'll maybe ignore what happened, maybe learn how to deal with that... but i'm broken now... more that I ever was.... I guess it's goodbye to a future together... Goodbye to the us that never existed... Goodbye... I'll see you tomorrow as a friend. But now it hurts. Everything hurts... Love is the most selfish thing to exist. The most gruesome thing to happen to humans. It gives other person the hability to break us... We really are masochists... We crave the only thing that can actually break someone... I will wait for you for the timebeing... maybe we could still be together in the future... maybe it was just bad timing... all those maybes... but for now it's goodbye my love and hello old friend...

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